Clartiy

I was thinking (yes, it hurt) about what I reeeeeally want to do. What am I most interested in? I'm not going to just stay at home forever; that's boring. What do I miss everyday? What is the next big thing? It didn't take very long to figure it out.
I have so many friends on FB posting about how they are "off to rehearsal," "happy closing," "i love my cast," "felt good about my audition," "watch (whatever show). you'll see me behind (actress)!" I do get excited for them, I do. Do I get disgusted with myself for allowing myself to be sooo consumed with jealousy it ends up ruining the remainder of my day? Yes, a thousand times, yes. I have no real reason to be jealous, I mean, could I really be doing all of that too? Yes. So, here's the adjustment to that initial list of 10 things I want to do; get cast in a show. BAM! Challenge accepted! A lot has to go into that; I have to go back to a vocal coach, go back to dance class, get back down to a standard costume size. It will be just as hard as training for a marathon. You don't think so? Ok, you go do it. ;)
For the past year and a half, I have been engaged to this box of study materials for a personal trainer certification; we have never set a date. Well, guys, it's final! The date is September 8th, I'm taking the test. I  got sidetracked by the whole baby thing and never opened the box again until a week ago. I try to study a little in the morning and then after Oliver goes to bed at 7 and Jude is hanging out in his room, I study a little more. I don't know how some moms and dads go to school and work and do all of the kid stuff. You guys are awesome; I'm not that cool, kudos! The material isn't difficult, seeing as I know a whole lot of it already. As long as it's something you are interested in and passionate about it doesn't seem like work, right?
Lastly, I let my Esthetician license expire like a dummy so I think I may re-take the state board test to reinstate that. I let it expire knowing I was moving to NY and I thought I was never going to live in California again; I mean, it wasn't an absurd thought and it would have been invalid in NY as I took the boards in CA. Anyhow, it's an option; I miss the discounts! I liked the business and the work I just found the facials boring and taxing. I could never be a massage therapist; I was always so affected by the client's stress or anxiety so, after 5 facials I'd be spent. I am not into the massage portion of the facial; I am good at it, I will say that, it was just boooooring. I was more into the clinical part of it; cleansing exfoliate, EXTRACTIONS... guys, I'm a picker, like, if there is something that needs to be popped or extracted I cannot continue conversation until you or I handle your biz. It's the main reason I considered the career. I know, right? cray cray. I liked waxing because I could talk more and it was faster. I could book more and make more cashola. I just have to study a bit for the written portion but I think I'll be good.
In a nutshell, I'll be a busy bee. I like it that way :)

Don't settle. That never works out for anyone.
be well,
xoL