Follow The Yellow Brick Road

You know when Dorothy's house is in the middle of the tornado and she wakes up and sees all those that she loves and then some that may frighten her? That's what I feel like. I feel like there is so much going on  all around me and all I'm doing is spinning in circles.

mess

papa and his boys at the diner

We had a small going away party this past Saturday. It was really nice. I cried... a lot...obviously. Then my in-laws took Jude up to Paso with them so it would make packing a little easier. Well, turns out, there's still one here! Oliver, while being the best baby ever, is still a damn baby! What was I thinking!? I should've kept my little pod together. Oh well. My house is a wreck; I cry at the drop of a hat. I'm crying right now just thinking of crying. I'm a fucking mess. Pardon the language but that is just where we are right now. 

We all went to San Pedro's treasure, The Pacific Diner for one last family breakfast with Jude before my in- laws left with him. I said, "eh, eff it, I'm gonna have egg whites" I got a vegetarian omelet with egg whites, avo and ortega chile. I forgot to ask for no cheese so I just ate it as is. So good. I devoured the entire thing; I was so hungry from barely eating the day before, the poor omelet had no chance. I was super full until dinner time when, after packing up the kitchen, we ordered italian; I went for eggplant parm. I normally just get a salad with no cheese so it's just lettuce tomato, mushrooms, olives and cucumbers. Not this time. I still feel sick; it was like my brain stopped working. So lets recount this; Breakfast: eggs and cheese; Lunch: nothing; Dinner: cheese and white pasta. My body went through a major shock and my poor husby paid for it!!! oh man, bad, bad news bears. MIS-ER-UH-BLE!!! I was happy to know that while my body was writhing in intestinal pain it knew that this was bad. My body rejected that shit so fast I was kinda of happy to know that I really am not the same. This old girl has done the work and I can't mess with that. 

Still packing, just thought I'd drop in for a sec. 

be well for me. 

i am not at this moment.

xoL